I am Going to B-dubs!!!

Week 16: Baby is 4 1/2 inches long and weighs 3 1/2 ounces, baby has started growing toe nails this week:)

I seem to have lost all common sense this week because I usually HATE buffalo wings and now I can't get enough of them! Four days in a row of buffalo wing heaven! I don't have any "spicy receptors" either because it seems like the hotter the food, the more I want it. I don't even taste spicy hotness anymore, I could probably drink a bottle of Frank's hot sauce right now and it wouldn't affect me at all. I even told my husband to dare me to do it and he said "No", because "it's weird". Whatever. I am loving me some HOTNESS:)

As much as I crave food right now though, I also can't eat a lot of it. I am super duper bloated all the time. I get this really sharp rib pain right above my stomach whenever I eat. It is so uncomfortable that I can really only eat a little bit of food at a time before I feel like I am going to hurl. What also sucks is that by the time evening hits, my belly has inflated by 4 INCHES! Not kidding! I am going to measure it one of these days and take pictures.

In the morning, I am good to go and feel kind of skinny. Then by the end of the day I have to unzip the pants and stretch out on the couch and let my belly hang out because it is so bloated and huge! Then in the morning, TADA!, my giant belly is gone. It is the weirdest thing and also pretty painful. I am pretty miserable in the evening because of all the pressure, I am just hoping that this doesn't last for long because I really miss being able to sit down and eat a normal amount of food without being in pain:/

Week 15 Pic

Here I am! Bigger or not??

Baby Bump OR Suddenly Obese???

Week 14: Baby is 3 1/2 inches long and weighs 1 1/2 ounces and can now suck his/her thumb:)

So this weekend R graduated from Medical School! I am sooo happy! I feel like we've been waiting for this moment for YEARS...oh wait, we have!!! There is just no way to describe what a relief it is to know that we made it through these four years intact (NOT an easy task) and with a new baby on the way<3

However, this week has brought on some turbulence in my emotional state, as if that is even a surprise. I have been so moody lately that just about anything and everything sends me into at least an hour of emotional agony. This week it was the fact that I "popped". Now, most people say, "Oh, isn't that cute, I see a little bump!" NO. It's not cute. Especially if the majority of people instead say, "Wow, have you put on a few pounds??" There must be a time like this in every pregnancy where people just can't tell if it's a baby bump OR if you've gained 10 pounds and are looking a lot more "chunky monkey" than you did yesterday.

So my meltdown just happened to be on Thursday night when I went shopping for a dress for R's graduation. I am not ashamed to say that I am usually a normal size 10, on a good day a size 8. But, since becoming pregnant I have gained a little over 10 pounds, which okay, that's kind of a lot. BUT, keep this in mind, I haven't had any morning sickness at all, so instead of puking or finding food revolting, I have instead been plagued by nausea and fatigue if I DON'T eat every 2-3 hours. So whatever, my appetite is up, so my weight is up and it shows. I have at least been able to squeeze my bigger self into my same work clothes using a "belly band" and NO ONE at work has even guessed that I might possibly be pregnant, they just think I am getting fat. Which, whatever, that's fine...I don't care what people at work think.

So anyways, I went to JC Penney's and Kohl's trying on dress after dress after dress and realized that even though I've only gained 10 pounds, my waist is so much thicker than it used to be that not even a size 16 looks right on me, my belly pokes right out and I look like a "PeopleofWalmart" victim!!! My belly literally pokes out of a size 16 dress, how is this possible? Only 10 pounds and I've gone up to over a size 16??? Stfu!!!! That's when the tears started rolling in the Kohl's dressing room. Then I briefly wondered if there were people watching me have this emotional breakdown over a hidden security camera, and so I cried even more.

However traumatic this event was, it did push me to possibly start looking at buying some maternity clothes. Maybe I am not obese just yet, maybe I am just pregnant.