Reflections of Motherhood

Really cute video! Really makes me think about my mom and what kind of mom I am going to be. :)

NO Gestational Diabetes!!!

30 weeks: Baby Ava is 15.7 inches and about 3 pounds now!!!

So I failed my 1 hour GD test on August 3rd, so today I had to come in and take the 3hour test. In other words, I was in complete hell for 3 hours. I had to fast for 12 hours and then go into the doctor's office to drink another glucola, on an empty stomach>:P About 30 minutes after drinking the glucola, I thought I was going to die. I was dizzy, nauseous and couldn't even focus my vision long enough to keep my eyes open. As I sat in the waiting room I thought for sure I was going to black out. I pulled a chair up to my feet, put my feet up, and laid my head back on the wall so that I could try to sleep, the whole time feeling like at any moment I was going to pass out! It was the worse morning ever.

Well, today I went into the doctor's office and they told me that I don't have gestational diabetes, however I do have some signs of insulin resistance, which they then told me happens to every woman at some point during pregnancy. I am happy, but somewhat frustrated because I don't really know what this means. Whatever, I am just happy that there will be no insulin shots or pills for me! Thank GOD!!!

Back to the Classroom:/

So this week was the first full week that I've been back in the classroom. To put it mildly, I am EXHAUSTED! I was really nervous to start back to school this week. Maybe it's because I know that I am already having issues sleeping and keeping my emotions in check. This whole summer, if I can't sleep or get comfortable at night, I could take short naps throughout the day so that I wouldn't get too exhausted, but I can't do that anymore:(

My students seem like good kids, I do have one class though (with over 35 kids in it) that has been pretty out of control from day one. That makes me a little nervous. This whole week I have been up and around and giving out directives and rules and trying to get classes of 30 teenagers to pretend that they care about school by not cussing, screaming at one another, or giving me attitude. Honestly, I am not even sure why I try. Telling a 15-18 year old to act like a normal human being is like asking a one year old to perform calculus. It's not even in their vocabulary and they look at me like I have lost my mind. The only way to get a point across is to give them food or light something on fire, (which I vow to do only once or twice a week this year:)

I forgot, I am totally crazy for telling you to do your science lab instead of texting the girl sitting less than 3 feet away from you. Please, oh please curse me out under your breath while rolling your eyes!! Better yet, tell the kid next to you that he's a dumb*** m-f*er so that the whole class can go crazy while he punches your face in. I LOVE IT! Anyways, not sure how I am going to survive the next few months...in fact, I might die, they might kill me. Really dreading the day that my little Ava becomes a teenager, I don't think I will be able to handle the overly dramatic obnoxiousness.

Anyways, what really surprises me is how swollen my feet get when I am up and walking all day. Up until now, I really haven't had any issues with this pregnancy, so the sudden exhaustion and swelling is a little disconcerting. I hope this is just a "back to school" thing and that once my body adjusts to the work schedule, I start to feel better.