Life with Ava - Change is Coming!

So I haven't blogged as much as I had hoped I would during this pregnancy. Somehow, the days have just flown by, and the little moments that I would have liked to document in writing, are now just fleeting moments and memories that are most likely hidden somewhere in my heart. Ava running, Ava screeching, all of Ava's new words, silly words, silly faces, new discoveries...she is becomes a whole new person everyday and it's hard to fathom that someday I won't remember her quite the way she was today. Every moment changes into the next moment and suddenly she has become something new and different. It's beautiful. Her life is beautiful. She is so beautiful. While being at home with her 24/7 has been a little difficult while being so enormously pregnant, her father and I have tried to explain to her that pretty soon she will have a baby brother. I find it interesting that we are trying to prepare her for something that we ourselves have absolutely no clue about...we are the blind leading the blind here. We both know that our lives, all of our lives, will change drastically, and that someday far down the road, we won't even remember what it was like to not have two kids. Maybe in the same way that it's hard to fathom what we ever did before Ava. I get really nostalgic when I think about these first 21 months of Ava's life. She has been our rock star, our number one baby, our everything. Our world has revolved around her, my world has been nothing but her...for an entire 21 months. Just shy of two years. I get sad when I think that in just a few days, that will be gone. There's a tinge of guilt that permeates my every interaction with her now. I want to remember these days, I want her to remember these days, how special she is to us, but I know that at just a moment's notice, her life will change, and she will most likely never remember the past 21 months. She'll only remember life with little brother. I hope they are good memories. I hope she adjusts well, I hope she loves him and easily accepts this new little life into her own life. Part of me thinks that of course she will, part of me is terrified because I really have no idea. I am currently 37 weeks pregnant. Officially full-term! Baby boy, I can feel you in there! Even now as I type, you've had the hiccups and my belly has been knocking up a storm. We can't wait to meet you! We can't wait for you to be part of our family! It's a good family, full of laughter and goofiness and lots of shopping and trips to lots of far away places. But most of all, there is a lot of love. We like hugs and cuddling and smiles. We sing songs and go on walks and hold hands and we say, "I love you", probably way more than most. I hope that your entrance into this world is an easy and expedient one. Just think, in a few days, for a fraction of a second, you will be the youngest person in the world! I can't wait for you to meet your Dad and your Big Sister:) I can't wait to hold you in my arms and see your beautiful face!! Just remember that life may not always be easy here, especially your first few weeks, but you will always be loved by your family! Keep growing strong and I will see you in a few! I love you!